have you ever… loved, lost something so precious and dear

at a glance does it seem fair? a trade for what you have now?

cause it does something to you every time

that wholesome feeling of being apart of something greater then yourself

does it feel good? cause my heart hurts

it aches…it hurts more and more…

is it because of the things i say? or the things you do?

im trying to be, a better man 

does any of this matter?

the places i love or the people that breathe 

i swear, this i swear is true, i’ve loved 

as god as my witness ive tried 

and things seemed to have been better, will i be made anew?

the son of damned and i have sins forgivable, unforgivable

to be a damned.

and quite literally i think i am going to hell

i’m going to burn for the things ive done

please save me, from myself i give up

so dont give up on me, what little i have i give to you, fix it for me

is this loss prevention, i cant go on with the dreadful that is me

let go, ill fall down so softly if only you let me 

im trying my best, to be a better man

let me grow, keep trying, trying my best its all i can do

a candles flicker grows ever so dimmer, save me

i’m running from the sun

i’m running from my mother

i’m running from my father, my brothers, my lover

hopeless endeavors.

I NEED YOU, IVE ALWAYS WANTED CHANGE, IM TRYING, WILL YOU STICK AROUND FOR ME, LOSS PREVENTION IS WHAT I NEED, SAVE ME PLEASE, LIFE, GROWS, LOVE ME FOR THE THINGS THAT SHAME ME, LOVE FOR THE THINGS THAT SADDEN ME, LOVE ME FOR THE THINGS THAT WEAKEN ME, LOVE ME FOR THE WRONG THAT IVE DONE, LOVE ME PLEASE…

grandma mary…

its a marvelous wonder that i have lived for so long, my mother and father forgot about me and my brothers a life of struggle is what we endured, days of hungry and nights of crying. we would’ve said fuck it and very much like a sinking ship gone down with the failing captains but we didn’t, grandma i love you, we love you, our lighthouse on the shore. You’ve made me in to the man i am today, proper, smart, respectful my future looks up because you believed in your 5 boys and i promise, i promise…….ill never forget you or the things you did for me. for us.

we, we’re wasting time and we, we’re running dry familiarities breed comtempt

Reblog and see what you get :D

• PURPLE: I don’t talk to you but I really love your blog.
• FUSHIA: I wish we were friends in real life.
• COOL GREY: You make me go asdfghjkl.
• RED: I love you with a burning passion.
• GREY: I wish you would notice me.
• PINK: I think you should follow me.
• TEAL: We have a lot in common.
• BLUE: You are my tumblr crush.
• ORANGE: I don’t like your blog.
• YELLOW: FUCK ME PLEASE.
• WHITE: MARRY ME PLEASE.
• GREEN: I think you’re cute.
• BLACK: I would date you.
• BROWN: I don’t like you.
• NONE = nobody likes you lol

i love art and everything about it, been drawing ever since i was a kid. its something that i have always wanted to pursue…and now i am, i’m going to and its going to happen, ill make damn sure it does. i found myself thinking today to the point of a headache about where my life is headed, im 22 and live at home still…something does not sit right with me and i realized i am the black sheep of my family, my brothers, damned son of my father, dream of my mother. i cannot sit idly by anymore doing the same routine over and over again, wake up at 5 be at work till 2. as of right now i lead a dead end life, its true but while i was thinking today i got pissed at myself for letting it get to me because i could have done something in the past to have been more successful or more inclined to do what i want. well now i know i want, to own my own gallery at age 30 at the latest, its going to happen, im going to make it happen, time does not wait, nor will it stop, i will not wait any longer and i will not stop till i achieve what i want. art was my dream as a child, and as a child i had to grow up faster then most you that will read this god forbid you actually do. i guess my inner child wants into the world, art……its what i have always loved.

no lies, just love.

(Source: yourbritneyspearsanon, via dance-on-euphoria)