have you ever… loved, lost something so precious and dear
at a glance does it seem fair? a trade for what you have now?
cause it does something to you every time
that wholesome feeling of being apart of something greater then yourself
does it feel good? cause my heart hurts
it aches…it hurts more and more…
is it because of the things i say? or the things you do?
im trying to be, a better man
does any of this matter?
the places i love or the people that breathe
i swear, this i swear is true, i’ve loved
as god as my witness ive tried
and things seemed to have been better, will i be made anew?
the son of damned and i have sins forgivable, unforgivable
to be a damned.
and quite literally i think i am going to hell
i’m going to burn for the things ive done
please save me, from myself i give up
so dont give up on me, what little i have i give to you, fix it for me
is this loss prevention, i cant go on with the dreadful that is me
let go, ill fall down so softly if only you let me
im trying my best, to be a better man
let me grow, keep trying, trying my best its all i can do
a candles flicker grows ever so dimmer, save me
i’m running from the sun
i’m running from my mother
i’m running from my father, my brothers, my lover
I NEED YOU, IVE ALWAYS WANTED CHANGE, IM TRYING, WILL YOU STICK AROUND FOR ME, LOSS PREVENTION IS WHAT I NEED, SAVE ME PLEASE, LIFE, GROWS, LOVE ME FOR THE THINGS THAT SHAME ME, LOVE FOR THE THINGS THAT SADDEN ME, LOVE ME FOR THE THINGS THAT WEAKEN ME, LOVE ME FOR THE WRONG THAT IVE DONE, LOVE ME PLEASE…
its a marvelous wonder that i have lived for so long, my mother and father forgot about me and my brothers a life of struggle is what we endured, days of hungry and nights of crying. we would’ve said fuck it and very much like a sinking ship gone down with the failing captains but we didn’t, grandma i love you, we love you, our lighthouse on the shore. You’ve made me in to the man i am today, proper, smart, respectful my future looks up because you believed in your 5 boys and i promise, i promise…….ill never forget you or the things you did for me. for us.